well well decided to post again i dont know why im feeling lky that i think im just bringing myself uncessary emptional pain and hurt its dumb i know but i can help it its like there cant possibily ignore it forever right? rahhs maybe im just back sliding if so.. i must do something about it can't possibily waste my time away while i await my doom right? rahhs i can't carry on like this i have to put all worries to a stop. but how? God please help me see the big picture.
even though i know im not a failure i feel like one sometimes something is wrong.
