alrights i decided to do a reflection of my whole study year yes its -.- i know but i dont have much a choice ms chang wrote in my report bk that i got 'distracted' for term 4 well.. how true but anyway i really got to buck up ive got less than a year till the Os okay i think i dont study hard enough which is quite obvious no motivation la no one pushing me no one encouraging me argh when i was doing the chinese test today afternoon everyone else was outside the classrm comparing results and what nots i heard someone shout that jayne got like 2nd in the level or sumtg like that i guess i'll never be as smart as her but that's pretty out of point i dont know what to say i think about the amt of hw im like -.- when am i ever gnna meet the expectations of my parents my teachers my friends and even God? maybe never i guess i prefer to live in my own world where everyone bounces arnd on clouds and eat cotton candy haha that's my idea of what heaven is like and everyone is worshipping God and eating cotton candy clouds ahyia cannot make it la i feel like a failure even though i know im not in the eyes of God i cant even help my friends i cant even like do camp stuff properely i cant do like a million things but only play lousy badmntn heh. i dont even dare to re-look through my report book haha its like -.- usual stuff nothing new. some ppl are already like revising im talking nonsense again oh whatever im not gnna care im gnna enjoy my holidays and take whatever God's gnna give me and make the best out of it breakout saturday in a few hrs time hope all turns out well(: think happy thoughts(: LOVES
