hello there.

Tuesday, October 31, 2006 9:25 PM

1:06 PM

ive got to get the script out by today
how now brown cow
ive got to call the younger ones
how now brown cow
ive got to call aunty cindy regarding the tee
how now brown cow
ive got to get the posters done
how now brown cow
ive got to do my homework
how now brown cow
i need to figure out how to get the fonts out
how now brown cow
i need samantha to answer the phone
how now brown cow
and the list continues
how now brown cow?

love,expecting nothing in return,
give, though they'll never say thanks
forgive, even thought they'll never forgive you
come early, stay late
invest everythg you've got even though nobody notices

there's no pre-packaged saints;
no "add-and-stir" formula that makes God's love gush forth
to be loving you've got to take up the cross,
deny yourself and make others your priority

dont wait for inspiration,
sometimes you can run on excitement,
but most times only commitment will carry you through
maybe i was wrong all this while.

i think i edited this post at least four times
why?

Monday, October 30, 2006 12:03 AM

i may never be a millionaire
funny.
i dont think i care
may never see the mountain view
i guess i dont need to
may never drive a fancy car or be a movie star
but i'll be,
i'll be,
the light of the world.

Saturday, October 28, 2006 10:33 PM

gosh.
what a day.
im just filled with so much anger right now
sumtg's wrong
need to talk.

poor bernice is down with some weird rash
scratching like a monkey now
haha
monkey?
bananas?
lol.

guitar today was fun(:
but the tips of my left hand fingers are still red
julia is like super funny.
funny fingers
lol
anyway.
must practice hard.
then someone can buy me a guitar for christmas(:

oh yes
dinnered with aaron josh and ryan
mean bunch of ppl la
-.-
combo one at long john silver
not everyone eats that
not me.
LOVES

im still feeling grouchy
it seems like no one understands
somethg is still wrong
why am i snapping at ppl so often now?
crazy.
mom says ive become a slave to the computer.
well..
maybe its true.
shld be doing things that are more productive.

Friday, October 27, 2006 11:44 PM

feeling ultra shacked
dont feel like saying anythg.
dont feel like doing anythg.
sick and tired of so many things.

i cant stand it anymore
need to let it out.
how now brown cow
feeling so restricted
its as if its against the law to feel sad

12:03 PM

all that i would do to have
the kind of faith it takes to step out of this boat
and onto the crashing waves

Thursday, October 26, 2006 3:14 PM

you're on your way to that better place.

we were the reason that He gave His life,
we were the reason that He suffered and died
to a world that was lost He gave all He could give
to show us the reason to live
we are the reason-david meece

Wednesday, October 25, 2006 3:22 PM

game over.

Tuesday, October 24, 2006 5:28 PM

scary frosty.
and frosty blushing
hahaha
this cracked me up
im in a christmas mood(:

popped over to j8 today
dont really wnna say much.
think i needa settle my thoughts a bit
all the food's gone up to my brain.
till then..
no more subway till the end of this year
hope i can last(:
aja aja!
haha
okay.
that's so not me.
alrights.
off to book courts for this friday.
any takers?
LOVES

have a break.
have a kitcat.
meow.

a bunch of bananas anyone?

i still wnna go to the zoo someday(:
anyone wnna bring me?

Monday, October 23, 2006 6:23 PM

i guess its unfair when bad stuff happens to us even though it''s not even our fault.
what to do
life's like that.
im might not understand what exactly is going on..
but cheer up buddy(:

wonka's nerd ropes are yummy(:

anyway
thanks serene(:

Sunday, October 22, 2006 3:19 PM

TRUST in His timing
RELY on His promises
WAIT for His answers
BELIEVE in His miracles
REJOICE in His goodness
RELAX in His pressence

so many things to do :/

im drinking green tea now
havent had it in a long time
bought a new toothbrush
its kodomo again(:
im gnna watch youtube now
im fat
byebye.

12:48 AM

what a happy day(:
its like 12.43am now

i feel 10kg heavier
ate a lot
):
im fat
and i din go for badmntn today
dad din want me to go):
went to the revolving restaurant for lunch
and went to long beach at marina for dinner
met mr crab there again(((:
*big fat grins*
sentosa was alrights
saw seb who was working at ben and jerry's
but too bad
no free ice cream.
alrights
popping to bed already
LOVES

to weiling and mel
who are at genting and korea respectively
hope you girls are having fun(:
miss you!

God provides(:
i feel so fortunate.

eye candy((:

we could be more than just amazing
its you being that friend who asks for nothing in return

Saturday, October 21, 2006 12:32 AM

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BERNICE(:
please grow up(:

i think i cant emphasise enough
how much i dislike ppl lying to me
and breaking promises on purpose
its irks me a lot
if you dont know.

it just suddenly dawned on me that God has been so gracious to me
always giving me enough to get by
amelia..
you must learn to be thankful.
yes.
just hope that i wont breakdown when the seriousness of the patheticness of my results sink in
yes
sounds confusing
but that's the way i like it
just like during the mid years
din really care about my results
and one not so fine day..
just realised how BAD my results were
and broke down
wow.
argh
amelia
you are lousy.
bleaghs

i need time out.
i need to spend time with the ppl i love.

argh
dont feel lky doing anythg tmr
just looking forward to badmntn
scream and make all the silly mistakes in the world on court

oh yes
inter-house badmntn today
no comments
really thank those who were patient with me
and prevented me from panicking
fearon won(:

sun/sand/sea
LOVES

Friday, October 20, 2006 6:14 PM

today is a fail subjects day
except maths
:/

but i dont have to drop any subs
and i dont have to go for study camp.
thank God

oh dear
my posts are getting shorter
how now brown cow?
LOVES

Thursday, October 19, 2006 6:29 PM

happy birthday dad!
(:

got back half of my reults today
not too sad
but not too happy either
:/

Wednesday, October 18, 2006 5:52 PM

alrights.
deleted my saddening post

a little sumtg for my dear germs(:
heehee
dont worry about the silly interhouse thing
hope there wld be haze
then we wont have to go crazy
and go -.- talking to tan.
shant say things here that u wont want others to see
so..
i shall stop here.
oh yes
dont worry about math ya?
who cries tmr will lose okay?
loves.

alrights
as promised..
sumtg for jed
i cannot thank you enough
you're Godsend(:
stop snacking on too many kids okay?
but thank goodness im safe(:
heehee

haha. sumtg for shandy
who says im your good and faithful servant?
okay.
i shall not call you princess anymore
bleaghs >.<
huai xiao hai!

thought it through a while ago.
i might take engineering if all goes well in the future(:

Tuesday, October 17, 2006 11:14 PM

sulks.
im sooo sorry
i think i owe you a gazillion hugs
):
LOVES.

3:41 PM

it feels much better to be back in sch
its alright shandy
i wont pull you into the water
tuo1 ni3 xia4 shui3
i'll push you into the water!
hahaha

smitten while playing badminton(:

thought about a lot of things ytd night.
shrugs.

even as i see the people anound me change
and renew their faith in God
somehow
i think im stangant
as much as i declare my faith and love for Him
somehow
it returns to me void
why does that space feel so empty now?

there is a longing
only you can fill

Monday, October 16, 2006 11:56 PM

well well
decided to post again
i dont know why im feeling lky that
i think im just bringing myself uncessary emptional pain and hurt
its dumb
i know
but i can help it
its like there
cant possibily ignore it forever right?
rahhs
maybe im just back sliding
if so..
i must do something about it
can't possibily waste my time away while i await my doom right?
rahhs
i can't carry on like this
i have to put all worries to a stop.
but how?
God please help me see the big picture.

even though i know im not a failure
i feel like one sometimes
something is wrong.

11:32 PM

alrights
im back
hmmm..
shld have changed my blog add to
www.howtobeatamelia.blogspot.com
hehe
*winks

what a day.

if i lay here
if i just lay here
wld you lie with me
and just forget the world.
i doubt you wld