hello there.

Friday, November 17, 2006 6:16 PM

hey
had training today
funny stuffs
training was supposed to be at 9am
guess what time i woke up?
8.55am
haha
but i managed to reach the salvation army place by 9.15am
dont ask me how i did that.
cuz i just did:D
training was rather fun
even though tiring(:
i think my whole body wld be aching tmr.
LOVES

12:16 AM

let's see..
haha
i cant believe im like leaving tmr
im kinda excited
wait.
am i?
i dont know whether it wld be really cold there..
hmmm...
anyway
i realised i wont even be staying in belgium.
just passing by
haha.
but 5 days in italy :D
i find it rather funny
only knew the itenary like just
right.
i just rmbed i havent charged my ipod -.-

shandy:
haha
thanks for calling me today
i was really bored
let's buy the same ipod/creative
AFTER i rob a bank or sumtg(:
have fun at your job attatchment whatever tmr(:

jed:
i know you're really stressed up and everythg cuz of sch and other stuff
but hang in there(:
all the best for your test(:
we'll get the same tees soon!

alrights
off to bed
training tmr
helpp!
kinda worried :/
LOVES

go ignore me.
you win.

Thursday, November 16, 2006 12:42 AM

found this stashed away in some folder in my comp
the words are ironic.
i believe in cross country.
wow.
argh
everythg's getting on my nerves
i cant stand it
im gnna pop
no one is listening to me.
if you're not gnna care
im not gnna care either
what for get myself so irritated and stressed over small, silly matters.
and adding on to that,
my silly phone just cant seem to receive msges
will someone teach me how to calm down?
oh wait.
did i just hear a no?
great.
i knew it.
sulk.

RED is cool.

Wednesday, November 15, 2006 9:24 PM

my hiding place
free from all the troubles of the world

Tuesday, November 14, 2006 4:05 PM

hey
im like halfway into packing my table
i never knew there was so much junk
tsk tsk
loads of letters,
newsweek,
and national geographics
and of course
paper.
i think i can set up some recycling company
haha
oh.
found my ss text book!
hooray!
it was like hidden behind my files
i dont even rmb putting them there.
anyway
was flipping through the J factor camp file
found this poem about hugs
haha

there's no such thing as a bad hug
only good ones
and great ones

they are non-fattening and
they dont cause cancer or cavities

they are all natural-
with no preservatives, artificial ingredients or pesticde residue

they are cholesterol-free,
naturally sweet, 100% wholesome
and they are completely renewable resourse

they dont require batteries,
tune ups, or x-rays

they are non-taxable
fully returnable and energy efficient

they're safe in all kinds of weather

in fact, they're especially good for cold and rainy days
and they are exceptionally effective in treating problems
like bad dreams or monday blahs

never wait until tomorrow to hug someone you coud hug today,
because when you give one,
you get one right back your way!
(:
haha
thought it was rather cute
anyway
im feeling bored
better finish up packing my room
before i start staring into space
LOVES

12:14 AM

this is Blue
the fat cat
it didn't really like us when we stayed at the house during the farmstay
so cold.
so blue.

Buffy!
it slept on our beds
i miss buffy(:

wahahaha
grins.

as usual
im bored again
still needa get camp tee done
sigh
i hate last minute stuff
but i can only blame my dumb brain for not being able to think :/
but at least now ive got a few ideas
just needa piece them together
let's hope it wont turn out a flop
anyway
im thinking of food right now
the tiramisu from TCC is like super good
but its like ex. too
but if you want you can tell me
and i wld gladly buy for you
i wnna pamper my friends
i think i dont treat them well enough
sheesh.
haha
its like 1238am
and naomi's telling me dumb jokes
oh my goodness
what's a sheep without legs called?
a cloud.
lol
lame chops to the max
it doesnt even link la.
but nvm
it came from her
so its alright(:
haha
alrights
off to bed
tired of looking at browine men after brownie men
LOVES

Monday, November 13, 2006 11:14 AM

first things first(:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PUIWAH(:

thanks for all that you've given me during this 3 years(:
sch wld have been different without you(:

breakout saturday was fine.
im just glad its over(:
pool was fun.
hah.
anyway
my mom had to remove the plug so that i cldn't use the comp ytd
but i ended up finishing goong
and ended about 1am
hah.
finally.
the ending is nice
i love happy endings.
oh wells
supposed to go out with my friends today
but i guess i'll have the whole day to myself
rotting in front of the computer.
got to get the camp tee going
lots of thinking to do man.
five more days to holiday
im gnna miss a lot of ppl :/
i need a new phone badly
its in bad shape
and ytd my phone died on me
cldnt press anythg:/
and when i told my dad
he din even care
rahhs
and i found out ytd as well that he bought a computer for my cousin
what?!
oh wells
i shldn't say anythg
so much for parents
anyway
my phone has decided it wld give me another chance to treat it better
its working again
cheat my feelings :/
im living in constant worry that it wld die out on me again
anytime soon.

anyway
was just reading what the vine sent me
it says
"the hard part is knowing that you're on the verge of a breakthrough,
then having God to tell you to wait.
it's when you think He's forgotten you and every second feels like a lifetime,
that your patience gets a workout.
david said:" i waited patiently for the Lord and He set my feet on solid ground and gave me a hymn of praise"
when you honour God's timing,
you always land on solid ground,
and end up with a reason to praise Him."
(:
LOVES

Saturday, November 11, 2006 1:05 AM

alrights
i decided to do a reflection of my whole study year
yes
its -.-
i know
but i dont have much a choice
ms chang wrote in my report bk that i got 'distracted' for term 4
well..
how true
but anyway
i really got to buck up
ive got less than a year till the Os
okay
i think i dont study hard enough
which is quite obvious
no motivation la
no one pushing me
no one encouraging me
argh
when i was doing the chinese test today afternoon
everyone else was outside the classrm comparing results and what nots
i heard someone shout that jayne got like 2nd in the level or sumtg like that
i guess i'll never be as smart as her
but that's pretty out of point
i dont know what to say
i think about the amt of hw
im like -.-
when am i ever gnna meet the expectations of my parents
my teachers
my friends
and even God?
maybe never i guess
i prefer to live in my own world
where everyone bounces arnd on clouds and eat cotton candy
haha
that's my idea of what heaven is like
and everyone is worshipping God and eating cotton candy clouds
ahyia
cannot make it la
i feel like a failure even though i know im not in the eyes of God
i cant even help my friends
i cant even like do camp stuff properely
i cant do like a million things
but only play lousy badmntn
heh.
i dont even dare to re-look through my report book
haha
its like -.-
usual stuff
nothing new.
some ppl are already like revising
im talking nonsense again
oh whatever
im not gnna care
im gnna enjoy my holidays and take whatever God's gnna give me and make the best out of it
breakout saturday in a few hrs time
hope all turns out well(:
think happy thoughts(:
LOVES

how i wish i cld help you

Friday, November 10, 2006 6:54 PM

rainy rainy day
last day of headstart
and a tonne of hw
sheesh
took 3 tests today
including the silly chinese test-.-
i feel like typing random stuff now
oh yes
guitar's been super fun
im hungry for more strumming methods
arghh.
anyway
im intending to save money
haha
everyone say WOW.
haha
i want a new ipod:/
so i can concentrate on my exams next year
with music
sounds silly
but its true:/
oh
i found my guitar pick(:
happy stuff(:
haha
im off to call the younger ones for breakout tmr(:
please pick up the phone and say YES.
LOVES

camp stuff
camp stuff
camp stuff
homework
homework
homework

i know many ppl are tired of various things
but just cling on tight
and you'll find your way out soon

one more week till holiday.

Wednesday, November 08, 2006 2:27 PM

what a day.
felt even worse than ytd
took the dumb cough mixture this morning
which caused drousiness
and i still stupidly went to sch
and of course
i felt drousy like i-dont-know-what
so in the end i didn't take the chinese test and just slept thoughtout the whole thing.
ive got physics test tmr:/
i'll consider whether a not to go to sch.
oh mans
ive lost my voice again
can't sing ):
LOVES

Tuesday, November 07, 2006 6:05 PM

hey(:
today was a slack day in sch
hoho(:
anyway
its all smiles for amelia today cuz i learnt how to strum
hah.
happy nappy(:
i can play songs(:
now its time to buy a guitar(:
ok.
i shant be too happy about it
LOVES

chem prac and chinese test tmr
eeps:/

Monday, November 06, 2006 1:36 PM

thanks mellissa for the cough drops(:
that whole big pack shld be able to last me till i recover(:

6 tests this week;
4 more days till end of headstart;
1 more physics tuition to endure;
12 days to holiday;

a few lines on the floor;
two raquets;
one feathery thing;
a net;
and you get to play a game of badmntn(:

was practicing guitar just now
rain down-planetshakers(:
aaron!
teach me how to strum :/

hmmm..
i realised that satan's been working overtime again
probably cuz its the outreach season
tsk tsk
he's trying to do the impossible again:/
let's work hard to fight the devil(:

Sunday, November 05, 2006 9:09 PM

that's how im feeling now
i dont know what's wrong with me
its dumb.
im like stuck here.
all alone.
no one's listening again :/

im like so dead to everythg
its that whole disappointment thing all over again
im so helpless
so many things to do
so many responsibilities to carry

but apparently,
many others around me are having some sort of trouble
how i wish i cld help them in some way
feeling so useless again -.-
i guess it's just another hurdle we have to cross
no point dragging heavy baggage around
but why does that sound so familar yet sumtg i cannot relate to?

anyway
i just rmbed i took holy communion today
argh
and why am i even doubting God now?

help help help help help help help help help

and im coughing really badly now
at this rate
dont think i can badmntn anytime soon.

im lacking that somethg/someone
really hope i can get over this soon
but i think i can only blame myself
can't expect God to suit all my needs

argh
there's sch tmr
lets hope i can survive
but least i feel happy there
compared to being at home alone
when all the silly things start bugging me
i need to talk to someone
but NO one is listening
i know God's there
but im not hearing anythg
nth can move me now.
okay
i regret typing that
i just read this thing on the computer table
it says
TRUST in His timing
WAIT for His answers

i cant wait for this week to end yet i dont want the weekends to come either.
im gnna pray and be patient.

okay lets talk about sumtg happy(:
haha
yeah
talked to aunty jia en about europe
haha
i guess there's quite a lot of nice stuff there(:
but i still see the need to know more about the countries
esp the language:/
italian
german
french
and a few more in order to survive there.
LOVES

surrender.

12:19 AM

no one is listening.

Saturday, November 04, 2006 1:59 AM

im tired.
bad bad sore throat
losing my voice.

somethg happened today that really got me thinking
are we who we really are?
well well..
life's like play.
i forgot what the exact quote is from macbeth
oh wells
im talking nonsense again-.-
shall go sleep
look at the time.
LOVES

Thursday, November 02, 2006 6:15 PM

amelia had sushi today
with mel and puiwah
it was great company(:
haha
puiwah carried my bag for me(:
argh
the flu's gone
but the cough's back

ive got 5 tests next week
plus,
the test of real faith that im going through.

Wednesday, November 01, 2006 11:38 PM

into the trash it goes
wheeee..

4:51 PM

my to-do list has just gotten longer
i dont know what to say
stop bothering me
you dont even know what's happening yet time and time again you keep jumping to conclusions
im so sick of it
but im gnna shut up.

anyway
sch was alright
managed to keep awake
mellissa made breakfast for me today(:
ham and cheese sandwich(:
and we had korean seaweed too(:
yum yums
oh and i managed to stay awake the whole day(:

look at my heart again
look at the mess ive gotten in
im learning to trust in You
to know that You'll see me
through my pride and through my shame
You show me love
You show me grace
im not looking back till i see Your face
im running straight to You

all i really want to do is to fall
into the emptiness that is a space in between us
and break this division
all i really want to do is to fall
into the emptiness that is a space in between us
You race in and bring us together again
together again