hello there.

Wednesday, February 28, 2007 10:42 PM

hehe
i have my amaths books with me again :D
the juniors who were on the bus sitting beside me brought it back home
hahha
so yeah
they passed it to me in the morning .
whee!
thank God.
anyway
im like really sad about today's training.
it was worse than i thought it would have been
and mr tan was like making it worse
sigh
i shldnt have acted the way i did
but i just cldnt help it.
all the super lousy shots and everythg
almost cldnt take it
but at this rate
i think jayne and i can forget about playing properly next next monday
arghh.
im like kinda stressed and stuff about all the competitions and everythg):
oh forget it
at least today's physics test was fine.
and i think things have started to get back on track.
but after awhile when good things happen
you dont even think that its actually THAT GOOD,
cuz its like.
it doesnt matter to you anyway
you're just like happy for a moment
and then before you know it,
its like gone.
but anyway
i enjoyed today's devotion
and yesterday's QT.
thanks jayne for blessing me with that QT book.
i wouldnt say that ive changed much from yesterday compared to today
but then it just feels a little better inside.
a lot of hard work has to be put in i guess.
LOVES

i dont understand why you're doing this
im like hating it so much
i dont think i should be the one going through all this when its not even my problem
sometimes i want nothing to do with you.
sigh.
the agony.

i cant wait for sunday.
when i can run away from all that's trailing behind me
towering me and making me feel smaller by the day.
i suddenly feel very enthu about it.
hahaha
BREAKING BARRIERS(:
we need prayer
so please pray for saftey especially,
good weather and of course.. FUN(:
thinking about it makes me happy
haha
i dont know why
but yeah.
grins.

Labels: bitter, sweet.

Tuesday, February 27, 2007 10:38 PM

hey
haha
it was fun heading down to NUS
kinda excited now
but then
it would be a different story on the day itself
there would be like 29 pairs in our event
so..
i dont know la.
hahha
eeps.
scary..
anyway
I LEFT MY AMATHS TEXTBOOK ON THE BUS!!
im sad ):
now i dont know what has happened to it
the bus company ppl didnt call me
must have been thinking about stuff so i forgot about it.
sigh
LOVES

You're not alone
Together we stand
I'll be by your side
You know I'll take your hand
When it gets cold
And it feels like the end
There's no place to go
You know I won't give in
No, I won't give in

Keep holding on
Cause you know we'll make it through
We'll make it through
Just stay strong
Cause you know I'm here for you
I'm here for you
There's nothing you can say
Nothing you can do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So, keep holding on
Cause you know we'll make it through
We'll make it through

So far away
I wish you were here
Before it's too late
This could all disappear
Before the door's closed
And it comes to an end
With you by my side
I will fight and defend
I'll fight and defend, yeah, yeah

Keep holding on
Cause you know we'll make it through
We'll make it through

Monday, February 26, 2007 10:48 PM

its a happy day
and i thank God for the weather
its a happy day
and im living it for my Lord
its a happy day,
and things are gnna get better,
living each day by the promises in God's word

sigh
what a day
i seriously think whatever im doing now is not worth it
no one is appreciative of it
but nevermind
im not gnna care
take it or leave it then
you'll never know the pain you caused me
shrugs.
i need prayer
ive lost almost everythg that i used to have
it had been so long that i cant even rmb when was the last time i really felt that i was leading a meaningful life
a life that was pleasing to God,
free from all these problems
now it seems kinda impossible to go back to where i started
or maybe i should just move on
but the fact is no one understands
so i might as well continue all this and wait till something happens
im really sick and tired of all these
rahhs.
oh wells
six more days to the biathlon
im rather nervous
i dont think i would be up to form.
like duh -.-
gnna go collect the race kit tmr with JL
hahha.
its gnna be real funny.
BREAKING BARRIERS (:
anyway
i was on the bus today
saw this guy that alighted from the bus i was on,
his girlfriend was at the bus stop waiting for him
after he alighted he walked towards her and hugged her like really tightly
and for quite a long time
even when the bus left the busstop he was still hugging her
i could see the girl's face and she was standing there, smiling like crazy
haha
so sweet.
LOVES

puiwah: thanks for the hugs these few days(:
although you can like almost suffocate me
but then it wakes me up in the morning.
grins.

Sunday, February 25, 2007 9:09 PM

hey
i got another guitar(:
i kinda like it
but i need to change the strings and stuff
so now both guitars are in tune
but im hungry for more guitar knowledge.
oh wells
probably next week or sumtg
sigh
somehow i dont know whether i shld give up the many things in life
really struggling now
but even when i wnna like drop subjects or whatever
most people discourage me from it
i want to drop to combine science and i wnna drop pure lit ):
im confused
everything's hei mong mong
im without wood,
listening to the advice of too many people
cant make my own decisions
haha
weiling,
i sound so joy luck club-y right?
hope i at least PASS the test tmr.
gosh.
oh wells
on a lighter note
badminton was fine ytd
had quite a funny conversation with gabrielle
he's like from henry park (really good at badminton)

me: so, gabrielle, how's your tournament?
g: hai hao lor
me: how about semi finals?
g: sigh, champions (then stares at me blankly)

i thought it was rather funny
and he's real chubby and cute :D

oh wells
back to sch tmr
LOVES

someone tell me it's gnna be alright.

Friday, February 23, 2007 7:59 PM

hey
hahha
went down to SCGS (-.-) to support the C div for their 3rd/4th placing match
we realy didnt deserve to lose la
oh wells.
nevermind
but there was this SJI guy who was the linesman
super funny mans
i think cuz we were screaming rather loudly so he put tissue paper in his ears
hahhha
oh wells.
im really really really tired
oh oh. regarding the guitar
i might get sumtg else.
shall go hunting some day(:
LOVES

Wednesday, February 21, 2007 11:39 PM

hey
im actually feeling kinda happy today
even though i failed pure lit and chem test badly
plus the fact that i almost went crazy teaching the sec ones footwork
plus i had to run more than 2km before training for that x-country thing
i dont wnna participate
AND i realised the biathlon is in about a weeks time
hahaha
must have become numb to failing the tests already
i cant study.
or maybe i didnt study hard enough.
hmm...
alrights then
LOVES

sulley seems happy too..
right?
grins.
i dont know.
let me know okay?

Tuesday, February 20, 2007 10:29 PM

i got my pull and bear jumper(:
grins.

now time for a little guitar update.
saw that i-forgot-what-brand-it-was guitar
and it was pretty good.
small enough for me
and the feel of the strings are good(:
but i'll see how serene's guitar is before buying it
so in the meantime,
would someone offer to accompany me to carry it for me when i go get it?
hahha.
just kidding
im kinda excited.
but then again
if i buy a guitar,
the rest of the guitar stuff would follow
then i would end up like some of the guys in church.
what i call guitar talk.
hahha.
but i'll see how it goes.
so long then.
mission accomplished for today.
saw a guitar i liked + pull and bear jumper(:
LOVES

back to the real world tmr
no more hunting for my size 26 pull and bear jumper
no more caramel frappuccinos.
no more movies.
but i still want to watch protege.

well, you never knew i was hurting inside did you
im trying to understand. im sorry.

Labels: i can't fight this feeling anymore.

12:39 AM

i realised ive been deluding myself
and trying to place all the unhappy stuff behind me
but i know thay'll all come back to haunt me
i keep telling myself
i dont care.
i dont care
but its hard not to care.
ive changed
and it'll be hard to go back to what i was.
and im refering to the good stuff
oh wells.
all good things have to come to an end
just like this long weekend break that we have
i know at the back of my head i have compos to do
its hard not to think about it.
sigh
its just another i-dont-know-how-to-feel nights.
alrights.
im out.

dear sulley.
i hope you would feel better soon.
would be praying.
double hugs.

Monday, February 19, 2007 11:18 PM

until now. i dont know who's who
but it doesnt matter.

new year's eve. fireworks(:

whee.

pull and bear jumper
pull and bear jumper
pull and bear jumper
im getting frustrated.

starwars monopoly(:

trying not to miss you.

Sunday, February 18, 2007 6:02 PM

the pull and bear jumper.
the pull and bear jumper.
the pull and bear jumper.

Friday, February 16, 2007 11:27 PM

alrights
a not so boring day today afterall(:
went to great world with pearl to get our nails done
(i just realised that my fingers are peeling again cuz of guitar._. or rather ): )
then went to vivo with the rest of them
had dinner there
not bad
but we kept comparing it with ding tai fung
and we kept warping photos with our 4 sony ericsson phones
ultra funny
haha
went to vivomart and took pics with stupid stuff like watermelons(:
but another thing caused me to be sad):
i bought rope nerds
but the whole thing fell out before i could even eat half of it D:
sulk
im gnna get them tmr.
LOVES

its red again(:

1:21 PM

heyhey
things are sure getting boring arnd here
alrights
ive got nth else to say already
told you it was boring.
OUT.

where have you been?

Wednesday, February 14, 2007 10:33 PM

hmm..
kinda sad now
guitar is BADLY out of tune
worse that what it was before i tried to tune it
now everythg sounds horrible

anyway
ive kinda like switched to slack mode ever since geog test ended
which is so typical of me
lao shi told bao yi and i to go to the study area to finish up the test
and i slept for that 40 mins or so
hahha
but still
lao shi didnt say anythg
hah.

the sec ones joined us for training today
was kinda glad there was a certain level of enthusiasm in the badminton-ers
but some were overly enthusiastic
hahha
but not too bad for a first try
besides the sec ones are rather sweet and should i say.. adorable
hahhha
esp amelia.
haha
she was like so chubby(:
anyways
hope mr tan found a place for dinner tonight
lol.

alrights
still kinda in a dilema
hmm..
dont know what to do
im trying to measure the pros and the cons.
LOVES

what we used to be
i.
think.
its.
all.
gone..

au revior

Tuesday, February 13, 2007 6:55 PM

today was a so-called terrible day in sch
super stressed
please pray for me to make a wise decision in the next few weeks or so
and once ive made my decision,
do not try and talk me into changing my desicion.
i cant take the stress
and i dont care whether the decision would be degrading or whatever
i think i would be better off a grade lower.
so be it then.
i cant study
i dont know how to study
and i cant bring myself to study.

cant wait for tmr
after geog test i would be free for about a week.
or so i hope.
i need a break badly.

the red is still for you.

Labels: breaking barriers(:

Monday, February 12, 2007 10:05 PM

i just deleted the whole chunk of rant.
all i can say is that im highly irritated
and i need many hugs and prayers.
too lazy to do work now.
off to play more guitar.

the red is for you again(:

[edit]
new skin!
would be learning how to play "mighty to save" in two weeks time
grins.

Sunday, February 11, 2007 11:11 PM

hey(:
great news
i figured out the strumming(:
and can change the chords with the strumming
which is like quick quick quick.
im glad :D
so ive actually completed my hw for the 2 weeks
hahha.
anyways
sigh
i havent done my CME presentation and the geog stuff still
and loads of chinese compos and assignments
but then again.
they went to switch the plugs for the projector.
so it cant work.
hahha
BUT a least i studied for chem test and filed my papers
plus practiced guitar(:
i want a great start to the week:D
LOVES

the red is for you.

12:52 AM

ive gotten kinda sick of doing the geog thing
and so ive decided to come here
afterall.. i dont think i can think like a president at this time of the day
oh wells
let's talk about guitar.
hah.
frankly speaking
i rmb last week
one of my worst weeks since the year started
i didnt want to go for cell
but i wanted guitar
as so i dragged myself to church
sat down
talked about some stuff ):
and then off to the guitar part
of course
my heart wasnt there
played like -.-
today..
slightly better
i still cant really feel like "far more than just playing" feeling
that i want to achieve
probably im thinking too much about the whole playing part
and that im bad at it etc.
but slowly but surely
ive began to see the joy of playing
and the WONDERS of playing
i know i dont have talent
and the thought of giving up has crossed my mind
but i guess i want to do sumtg right this time round
cannot be a disappointment to my teacher
hahha
but also not to disappoint God who has blessed me to have aaron to teach me
and i must try to rmb what he has been telling me
cuz i tend to forget as i laugh about 1/4 of the lesson.
alrights
shall start looking for a guitar to buy :D
and then i'll be off to be the first female guitarist in church
HAHA
alrights
not funny
long way to go man
probably a few years
im lousy :/
oh wells.

D D D U D U. U D U. U D U
D-down
U-up
new strumming for "Evermore"
but im still wondering how to change the chords at the right time.
grins.
shall blog about more guitar soon :D
LOVES

Saturday, February 10, 2007 10:42 PM

tiring day.

im disappointed in the way you react
i need far more than that.
i dont really care if its your style of treating people
but yeah.
please try and do sumtg about it ):
or maybe you just dont know.

BREAKING BARRIERS

Thursday, February 08, 2007 11:53 AM

mr. slurpee(:
i feel like having one again.

im free from sch for a day
*jumps for joy*
hahha
not really
not nvm :D
just gives me time to rush geog project.
hope they didnt give out last weeks' amaths test paper today.
haha.
confirm plus chop fail.
i wrote the last qn on a fresh piece of paper but didnt attempt the qn
so at the end of the test i just didnt attatch that piece of paper
and reused it for some other stuff
great way to save trees :D

team Breaking Barriers
HAHHAHA.
tell me im not dreaming.

much love,
amelia!

i cringe at the thought
and that i shldnt have found out what i see in front of me

Tuesday, February 06, 2007 10:44 PM

let's post :D
as you can see ive been in a pretty good mood these days
except in sch
when some ppl just irritate me a little
but nevermind
wont blame you all
cuz im just not a morning person
yes yes
im like blogging even though i have ss test tmr
and some chinese test on thurs which i have yet to study.
trying not to be too affected cuz its like NO POINT
and everythg's just gnna start all over again.
but despite all the good mood days,
cant really hear much from God
guess im still in the queue waiting for my turn
but ive been assured
so no worries my dear ones.
things are fine like lime :D

wednesday: ss test + training + meeting
thursday: chinese test + chinese remedial + eng tution
friday: competition with SCGS (its so gnna be a sad ending for the B'Div. sulk)
saturday: guitar(: + training

Monday, February 05, 2007 11:40 PM

get this.
i might be joining a biathlon
HAHAHHA
lol
funny stuff
not sure yet
i cant swim of course
so i might just run
and my friend would swim
hahaha
its gnna be hilarous.
im like looking at the website
its like HA HA.
2.5km
but i might not be joining
will see how it goes.
haha.
oh mans
ive got an amath test tmr and im still blogging here
i deserved to be spanked ):
LOVES.

5:07 PM

today was a fine day(:
havent had fine days for a long long long time
so you can say it was pretty good.
got back my physics test paper.
that one that i thought i was gnna fail cuz i was seriously writing nonsense for almost everythg
but yeah.
didn't fail(:
but there's SS test on wed
and i havent studied anythg
amaths test tmr
HA HA.
i dont even have my FYS
its gone
maybe someone can give me their amaths TYS/FYS
as valentines day present?
-.-
right.
i rather have a guitar :D

i'll share sumtg with your ppl here
it happened during chem lesson

teacher: (explaining some heat capacity stuff. blah blah blah)
teacher: do you all understand?
class: yes..
teacher: (pauses for a moment) i was teaching you all the wrong thing.
class: 0.0

fine fine.
its not funny.
go click that cross at the top right hand corner of your window.
goodbye.

Saturday, February 03, 2007 11:28 PM

what another day
cell was :/
just felt out of sorts
i didnt really know what i was talking about
things are really getting out of control.

but anyway
thanks to all those who have been trying to make me feel better
but i know its still a choice i have to make on my own
and i cant bring myself to do it now
im lacking in a lot of areas.
i just feel like sitting there and watch the world go by

i never wanted all these to happen.