still a bit sad that my post yesterday disappeared. guess it's was for a reason tho i felt it could speak to someone. not any one in particular. just got another piece of news today. it wasnt a surprise. but im disappointed and sad again. 2 days in a row i get the same piece of news. i cannot understand why. at times like this, i find it hard to take it that everything is God's plan. feeling quite burdened for various reasons. wish i could help open the eyes of someone to see the bigger picture. but in order for my plan to backfire on me, i guess i will not. thought it was always better to shoutout to a person who is walking straight into a wall to warn him/her. but i have come to understand that some people just have to learn it the hard way. to fall, to hurt themselves. so, i hope u do. sorry if i didnt help you. but i tried. but then again.. maybe i didnt try hard enough. that's why i alws go back to doing what i would normally do. but it doesnt work anymore. u have closed ur ears and ur heart. nothing we say can get to u. because we dont 'understand' recalling the times my parents used to nag at me. i always knew that somehow they were right. never blamed them for saying so. haha. okay. i have come to a point where i dont know what i am talking about. but i just want to end off by saying. u can choose who u want to be friends with. but u cannot choose your family.
anyway went to town today with aaron. harhar. after a million years. quite a last minute decision. i did not buy anything for myself. ultimate sad ): headed to holland to meet nat, jolyn and sharron for dinner. haha. guess these 3 girls will be the ones that i will continue to meet next time. had wala wala for dinner and daily scoop for desert. we saw quite a lot of familar ppl there. saw bear!!! and his gf and his family. haha. quite coincidental since we were just talking about him. and we saw an actress. forgot her name.but she is even more skinny in real life with nice skin. i guess being an actor/actress is hard bc u need to be like ultra skinny to look ok on tv. haha. we monopoly dealed! i won 3 out of 4 times. hehehehe (: alrights. not a bad day. just tired. and i gotta take in all these emotional stuff. guess it's better to escape for a while. leaving on saturday! whee! just that i gotta work tmr tho im on mc. what is this! anyway i dont do anythg there. oh wells. goodbye!
