it's 2:51am. haha. seriously should be sleeping. hung around online trying to update my phone. but cant ): this laptop is leaving me this week! time to buy my very own laptop. haha. dont really know what is good. anyway, it was only tonight that i decided to start afresh with God it's been too long. dont know what was holding me back also. but maybe i do la. but yea. i guess typing it here may help me to be abit more accountable in a sense. started my one year bible plan and also with journalling. zzz. SEEEERRRIOOUSSSLYYYY. i need to journal like properly. i cannot deny that one of the greatest times i had during trackers was the journaling process that helped me to bring my communication with God to a higher level. tho i know im the kind who doesnt really like to read back on my entries after a long time. esp about the bad stuff. dont like to be reminded. haha. and of course, i know myself that my journal entries is an accurate indicator to help me gauge my walk with God. yeayea. i know MANY people try to complete reading the bible in a year and fail. but i am going to try. i do want to immerse myself in the word, where i get my foundations right with God. it's not going to be easy. but i cannot just put God aside after all the amazing things He has done in my life.so i will work hard for my faith. i am not perfect and there are many things which i want to do in life, in church, in my family, for myself. but i know i have to take it one step at a time. and of course. not to procrastinate. the ONE outing has given me much hope in things for the future. i need to hang on to that. haha. ahyia. think it's me being emo at night again. off to bed. i will make the rest of this week productive. byee
